Poems

Hey everyone, rummaging in my room i found one of my old poem books, and I had kicks out of reading so, I decided to share them Please note, these go all the way back to 2000, so yeah you can laugh.enjoy!

I WAS WRONG:

I though i found it all,
when I looked into your eyes,
but this heart of mine,
was telling me lies.

I felt I had it all,
If i spent a while with you,
How many times i hoped,
you felt this way too.

I thought life was perfect,
if your smile came my way,
but now i know,
in my heart you cannot stay.

I thought i found love it you,
but i was wrong
you turned my life around and
brought it down with a bang
your heart belongs with her,
and with her it will stay
i've realized, you're not my sunshine ray

you were never mine, not for a single moment,
and somehow, i'll get over this torment,
so live your life, i've let you go,
and in the sea of life, continue, just row.


LOVING YOU:

Loving you sounds so easy
yet it is so hard,
because you push away
my heart leaving marred

loving you sounds so peaceful
yet it is my torment
and i try to understand
where all your feelings went

Loving you sounds so small,
yet to me it is the world
and every time you walk past
you don't realize my heart you've turned.

Loving you sounds so temporary,
yet for me it is forever,
because forget you, no matter what
I know, will be never
you don't realize my heart you've turned

SOMETIMES:

Sometimes life seems tough
and it seems you can't go on
sometimes thats it, you've had enough
and you don't know where to land.

sometimes you can't stand the hurt,
and nothing makes any sense,
sometimes it seems nothing is worth,
the pain that is so immense

Sometimes you just want it all to end,
and just let everything go away.
sometimes the trouble can't seem to mend,
and wherever you go they seem to lay.

and sometimes all you need is just one smile
and with someone your troubles to share
sometimes you can make the extra mile
all you need is someone to care.

HOW I LOVE YOU:

If i could take away your fears
and make them my own...
if it would stop your tears,
i would even be a clown

if i could take away all thats wrong
i would give you my smile...
if i had what makes you strong,
you would go the extra smile.

if i could take away all the pain,
i would be there through the hours..
if my tears would be your rain,
your garden would have flowers.

if to make your world perfect, i had the key,
i would give you this moment...
to make you happy, even if its without me.

What do you do when your solid rocks crumbles?

You know how when you're small Mom and Dad were the heroes? they could fix anything, they could right wrongs, and heal even broken bones. Then for a spell, friends took place, and you trusted them,and hanged with them, and listened to them. After that the Babes took that part, and here you are, still trusting and loving them and being there for them. Well what do you do when your solid rock changes? honestly, what happens then? you have trusted them so far. And now they up and go change on you. They aren't the same, the do different things, they say things that hurt, they DO things that hurt, and they don't even seem to care. and what happens to you? do you change with them? do u accept them that way and start getting used to them all over? Or do you turn around and start anew?
We humans are social creatures, its is proven that we need other people, so most of our time, we are getting used to people, learning to trust them, learning to love them, and appreciate them more every day. But what do you do when your rocks start shifting? I guess I need your advices. Help a confused girl.

Take time to appreciate...

I've been reflecting recently, my life can be so very complicated at times, and many times I don't find enought time to just appreciate. I think that we human beings don't take time to appreciat life it its simplicity. Honestly, if its not school that has us hasseled, it's the family, or the Job,(or the lack of one)or the boyfriend/girlfriend (or the lack of one) or some other thing. A plate of food for example, how many of us just gooble it down, and move right on to the next thign to do? Do we even give thanks that we are actually eating? there are millions of people around the world who would have cried with joy at that plate of food. It is true, that life can be complicated, but also, Its is Precios. I believe its time to appreciate... life in general. How many sunsets or sunrises have passed by, without us realizing the beauty of it. How many kisses have been given without true meaning. Really, look about, EVERYTHING has its own beauty. so today, just look about, kiss your little brother or sister and appreciate thier mischeviousness, Hug your mom, and appreciate that she's sucha great cook. When you tell that special someone 'I love you' mean it, and appreciate them for the things that made you fall in love. Take time to appreciate, Becuase someone out there appreciates you too!

The eight new things about me...

Ok since beth tagged me.. here i go;


1. i have a boyfriend whom I am very much taken with...
2. i have seven brothers and no sisters (except sara whom i've adopted)
3. i love to have my back scratched..(who doesnt?)
4. i love pink underwear
5. i want to study photographing someday
6. i want leo to be my photographer for my wedding(if i ever marry:)
7. i will go to paris someday
8. i love music very much


ok.. just for the record, i could go on and on... thanks for tagging me beth.. but i don't really know much peeps, so i tag danny(humor me?) sara (makedmostoflife), and anyone else who i know....

ME- the imperfect me.

Today after hearing mom rattle on and on that the rice didn't come out perfect, and that how come the washing wasn't perfectly done, I've come to a conclusion. I'M SO DAMN IMPERFECT!! I sat down today, and for more than a whole hour, I thought of my imperfections. I'm not a perfect daughter- I'm not a little lady- far from it, I prefer football than making perfectly round flour tortillas. I hate dresses, and many times prefer the company of male than the female species. I'm not a perfect sister- My 7 brothers get to my nerves a lot, I don't always help with the homeworks, I don't always get their food ready on time, and I'm definitely not a good role model. I'm not a perfect friend- Gosh, I have a really few friends, and sometimes, I'm bitchy, and selfish and jealous. I'm not a perfect student-ok, but not perfect, B+'s and such. Shucks, I'm not even a perfect liar or pretender- my colors just show up. Yap, I'm so not perfect. But who is? And this is me. This is who Judy is, the slightly overweight, loudmouthed girl. This is me, the girl who doesn't really give a damn if society doesn't like her or approve of her. This is me, the girl who does a million mistakes, the one who seems to be the ugly duckling of the clan. But hey.. I gots people who love me and accept me just the way I am.. and those few are enough. So, heres to all the peeps who like Judy just the imperfect way she is!I dedicate this one to you- My family, close friends and my sweety- thanks for loving me.And to those who don't.. learn to accept people the way they are, some things can change, but somethings are what define them...

Sometimes even the net gets boring...

mien this sucks.. I'm bored honestly! School is out- Thank God, Sarah went home from last week- still no forgive her that yet- Hilbert went home too, mom and the kids are at school, dad at work, Junny working, abby God knows where, I've read my entire library trice, no football to play yet, and even the net is getting me bored. this is pathetic. i need to go recruit some new books. yeah its getting boring being home all day. and today i cut off my lovely hair. ha! see how idle i am. anyone- ideas of thing to do when even the net gets boring?

Awww.. the wonders of writing!

Ever since I could hold a pen, I loved writing. I have Journals dating way back to the times when my ma used to put pigtails in my hair. Writing is a way of expressing yourself, in the most easiest manner- well for me it is. I love writing, when I start, I just seem to flow, and my fingers seem to be possessed. Its my way of letting loose, of letting go, seems like a little world in its own, this writing. and so I enter Blogosphere, (learned new word) and have decided to try my writing here.. I write about absolutely anything so be not surprised at some of the things you will read... nor do not laugh.. ok laugh just don't let me know! but yes, writing has its own wonders to experience, and I am so looking forward to extending my writing.
now how the heck do you add people in this 'blogging' thing?